
I have never had trouble in school, but certain familial and friend-related issues caused me to have a poor result in two classes one semester, but I have gotten my grades back up and found out that I can graduate with my first degree as soon as December or Spring. true it’s from a small college, but I do have plans to go on to get my degrees in Social Work and Psychology from one of the universities that first accepted me when I graduated at sixteen (an age I truly didn't feel prepared to go off to school alone, so at 17 a small college seemed the best bet, and I met some of the best people, friends, and instructors here).
Familial issues have calmed a great deal, and the friends who caused me so much stress, I no longer call friends. I got job that just so happens to be my dream, and so far, I love it. I have good hours (so far), love the kids, and like most of the people I am working with. Also, if I become a full-timer they will pay up to 90% of my tuition to the college of my choice, which is a awesome.
I am writing again, and while I am on hiatus from the novel I have been working on for ions, I have a few other projects in mind, one of which I hope I can finish by fall, and pursue publishing. Becoming published is one of my major dreams, and on my list of things to do before I die (again, lol). I am also doing more with my art, up cycling, crafting, making jewelry, painting, photography, etc. For a while, I was just so stressed and blah about everything that art went on the back burner.
I am reading again! I love to read beyond all else, and growing up I always went around with a book and a spare (or two). Now I am reading. I’m also trying new things, and even retrying things that I hated before, such as “How I Met Your Mother” and other books and movies. Some, I still hate, others I now love.
I see the beauty, the fun, the vibrancy in life again. I never completely lost my outlook on life, but my rose colored glasses were getting a bit foggy. The other night at work, I watched a brilliant storm. I LOVE storms, but in the last few months, I can’t remember taking the time to watch one.
True, Fox and I have been going through a rocky patch, but we both know that it’s all been rooted in all the stress. We’re working through it, and the happier I become, the less dissatisfied I feel with things between us. I guess the stress and anger made me more nitpicky and sensitive.
The car Gershom gave me Valentine’s Day before last (while old) is running beautifully, and now just needs a water pump. I love having my own wheels =] I am going out more with friends, having more fun, and I truly feel like skipping or doing a little dance. The latter might be a little bit frightening since I am severely rhythmically challenged and would like a demented Chui Wawa on speed.
This is my blessing list, I suppose and it’s growing. Thank you God for restoring my life and happiness =]
4 comments:
Kai,
I'm not going to comment much right now as I'm not able to thoroughly go through your posts. I want to set aside some time because what's happening in your life is becoming important to me.
Lemme just say for now that I love that you're happy. :)
Also I don't know if you saw it but I left some comments in your 'Mid-Way through Training' and 'I Got a Job' posts.
B
I deleted my previous piece because after reading more of your writing above, this one seems more fitting. I wrote it for a friend on another blog a while back...
"Through the photographer we see not what catches their eye, but what captures their heart."
-Barry O'Shea
Kai, I can't tell you how much I totally understand how you're feeling right now. :)
When I had my accident last year, a lot of things I was passionate about fell to the wayside. I won't say I fell into a depression, but I lost interest in many things, mostly my artistic side.
As I gradually pulled through, those dormant feelings returned much stronger than before. I began writing again with more passion than ever, and finally decided to start studying piano and pursue songwriting.
Today I have more enthusiasm than I ever have. I love life, I eat it up. Summer's around the corner which brings with it so much joy and promise.
Kai, people like you draw me in like a magnet. Your posts have been uplifting and I thank you for sharing your experiences (good or bad).
B
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